The Soul of a Man

I am conflicted and I find myself often times battling with what may be considered flaws in character traits that have become a curse to the human race. I’ve been told and have read  that I have been created in the likeness of a higher and most revered celestial being of power, yet I struggle to follow the righteous path. I ask myself, how can this be so if my creator is one who is omniscient, perfect  and without defect? Therein lies the conflict of the physical being and the inner being. My Soul!!!

Could it possibly be that my imperfection is the design of perfection and what I may perceive as imperfection is the perfection of my creator…Is the struggle of humankind a mere happenstance or an interruption in the natural process of evolution designed by forces of a mystical and supernatural origin?

How can it be that my spirit aches for salvation that is ever so elusive? I earnestly lament and make supplication for understanding, knowledge and wisdom so that I may bathe in contentment. I ask that the path be laid out before me and that my steps be guided along the way and that it be lit as I go. I ask to be blessed so that I may be a blessing to others with the hope of atoning for a  life full of transgressions.

My heart has always flowed with compassion and empathy as I yearn for a place that I have yet to reach…The Soul of a Man

Written by; Alton T. DeVeaux Jr. (Africafifth) Registered & Protected LSDV-XPTA-PE6T-Q7ED


Letter to T.O. and Those

Hey my brother,

Firstly and foremost let me personally acknowledge and congratulate you brother on what has been an outstanding and stellar world of fame career as one of the most prolific and premier wide receivers to ever play in the NFL. You have no doubt established your place in the upper echelon of professional athletes and in the annals of NFL history as one of the best to have ever played the game. Personally I am enormously grateful to have had the privilege of witnessing your astounding athletic talent and contribution to the game…. So I ask, what do you need the NFL Hall of Fame for? 

Secondly, I have been trying to figure out for the longest time why some of the most highly accomplished African/American (Black) athletes as well as actors and entertainers have this incessant need to be recognized by white America for their achievements and success? What the heck is that all about? Is it because they have been conditioned to do so and don’t really recognize it or is it just ego? More than likely it’s a combination of both!!!

Why do folks need these white established/invented institutions to serve as an acclamation and final exclamation point on ones professional career and level of greatness? What purpose do they really serve?

As far as I’m concerned, these institutions are another form of mental and emotional enslavement (although they weren’t intended to be) for our brothers and sisters and others. Since when does any person (esp. one of color) need the affirmation of another to rate or validate their contributions or the level of their performance? Whenever a person buys into that type of mentality, they have placed themselves at the mercy of those who have invented the process as well as those who vote ( most of whom are white). These puny pompous people with their nomination/induction process and ceremonial event revel in the thought that their otherwise meaningless existence at this particular time has some relevant power (it does not). Only if you subscribe to the process and recognize it as valid.

White folks created these institutions of so-called prominence, acclaim and fame so that they can decide who meets the standard of excellence (something they’ve also have manufactured) and who has the honor of gracing its walls and corridors for folks to gawk at in wonderment. It is a part of the conditioning process that occurs very early in one’s life.. Rewards for Excellence.. Man it is all so pretentious and subjective and actually when it comes down to it, it means absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of life, the world and the universe…

For most, I guess it serves as the final stamp of approval and recognition (from a select group of people who have probably never played a down) and just maybe one last widely publicized and nationally televised stroke for the ego. Oh please, please, please I need some stroking…What do you mean, I’m not worthy to be inducted into the Hall of Fame? Really???

Well, most of us seem to need a pat on the back for a job well done.. Although it’s gotta be a huge disappointment when it doesn’t come through. But hey, that is exactly what one has to expect when one relies on others to validate who they are and what they have accomplished.. You are now at their mercy and most of them are recklessly intoxicated with that notion… It’s gives them what they perceive as the power to validate or not. Which I guess can be a crushing blow to most. Personally, I wouldn’t give a crap or give them the pleasure…Just my pennies worth!!

Just a final note; I am all for excellence. Yes, be the best that you can possibly be. Do not settle for mediocrity and let your body of work speak for you,  not someone else’s standard of excellence..

Written by Alton T. DeVeaux Jr. (Africafifth) Registered & Protected 5SJY-KM0U-ACGZ-FBEF

Perceptions Influences Perspectives

I know that a lot of folks will read this and find issue with it.. That’s understandable because I am challenging everything that you perceive and believe to be true in addition to how you perceive yourself and others to be. We have become so ingrained in certain teachings that we dear not consider the possibilities of those teachings to be incorrect and definitely not contrived. I would like you to take a moment to just consider who you are as well as what and how you think and how that has manifested into what and who you believe you are today.
My perceptions do influence my perspective and I attempt to look at things in a more abstract context. This allows me to form my views far outside the conventional school of methodology and thought. What we are is not necessarily who we are and vise versa.. What if we are just extensions of an intelligent consciousness that requires a physical state in order to exist? An intelligent matter that has designed not only the universe but everything that exists in it. Yeah, I know sounds unbelievable. Not nearly as much as the story of some white man with long  flowing white hair and beard who has been cast as the divine creator of all there is…If you can believe that well, surely you can entertain my theory!!!
So it is written that; In the beginning  God created the heaven and the earth. And the earth was without form and void;  and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters… And God said, let there be light and there was light…Hmmm, I guess that would depend on what a so-called God is…
So, how do I perceive this and what is the perspective that I have?  Well, initially just like most people I suppose, I was taught that there was this divine God being who created the earth and every form of life that inhabits it… Consequently, my perception was dramatically influenced by what I was taught and the depictions of a  God that I was shown resulted in giving me a perspective (view) that was obscured and incorrect from these teachings… So, the question is; why was this done? The answer I believe that it was simply done as an effort to explain our presence here in a manner that we could relate too.It was considered blasphemous (and still is) to even think about questioning this myth..I decided to extricate my mind from the religions and their zealots, the so-called theologian scholars who are the conveyors of lies and deception and the purveyors of a manufactured creation story..I will seek to develop my own perceptions and my own perspective….I will question the story and those who continue to promulgate it..

Perspective is a point of view, perception is what you interpret. Perspective is an evaluation or analysis of something. It takes into account a belief system as well as what is taken in by the senses.

Perception is what you interpret from your five senses, touch, smell, sight, hearing, and taste. Perception is the process of attaining awareness or understanding of sensory information.

I especially like the last part: the process of attaining awareness or understanding of (SENSORY) information. How many times have you had a gut feeling about something, ignored it and in retrospect said man I knew I should have listened to my gut? How often have you felt pressured into doing something  that you didn’t want to do and regretted it afterwards? Our senses alert us of danger or when something just isn’t right but we continue to either ignore them, deny them and never challenge anything and then we capitulate.. Why? What are we so afraid of? Answer; Criticism and Ostracism.. Very powerful weapons!


We human beings are all the same and for the most part that is true to an extent, as it relates to the us as a  species. Most of us share the 5 basic senses that we are born with; (smell, taste, sight, hearing, touch) and maybe a sixth; intuition. The latter being the one we often times fail to acknowledge..
Some other commonalities are more or less character traits  that are written in our DNA and others are what we develop or pick up along the way. The list is somewhat extensive; for example, anger, fear, strength, passivity, aggression, assertiveness, compassion, empathy, greed, hate, hypocrisy, deceit, jealousy, envy, lust, patience, impatience just to name of few. Whether good or bad, the behavior is more than likely to have a huge impact on our lives as well as others who are in our circle…
We also have a need to be loved and appreciated, a need for attention and recognition, a need to belong or accepted, some of us are self motivated, some not, some have aspirations, some just hope…I feel that because of the enormity of the needs, they tend to place us in an extremely vulnerable position where we find ourselves most often making compromises or unhealthy decisions just to address the needs. Or we find ourselves shackled to the ideologies and dogma of a society and system that uses us like slaves….

Dogma;  An authoritative principle, belief or statement of opinion, especially one considered to be absolutely true regardless of evidence, or without evidence to support it.

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Conversation With A White Man

It is said that you never really know how someone really feels until you have a conversation with that person. I recently had the opportunity to engage in one such conversation and I must confess folks, it was quite revealing. Allow me to give you just a little back ground before I get started and I will refrain from using any names here.

Now, I have known this man whom I held in high regard (and to some extent, still do) for just a little over fourteen years through a working relationship. However, you know what they say; “I know him but I really don’t know him”. He comes across as very compassionate, understanding, personable and an honest person. Extremely easy to talk with and from what I could surmise then and still to this day, he does not have a single racist bone in his being… He’s  intelligent, disciplined, methodical, calculating, loyal and driven to be successful, all of which are qualities that I respect, admire and have personally aspired to incorporate in my life…His smile and demeanor are very disarming and could leave one with the impression of a docile man…But make no mistake about it, he’s a sly fox and skilled predator who knows how to shake people up in order to get what he needs to get done…These are for the most part pretty much common traits in all successful business men and women..
I first met him, by way of a referral through about 15 years ago through some IT Techs who were impressed with me and my work…So they helped to open the door for me to work with and for this man and it has proven to be a very successful and rewarding business relationship for both of us.  His business had grown exponentially over the years and I was entrusted with building the communications and data infrastructure for his over thirty locations.. Each location opened without a hitch and when he had sold the business out a few yeas ago, I had nothing to complain about because he took me along for the ride and I will always be grateful for the opportunity he gave me. So when he very recently decided to pursue another business venture, I was contacted and with some hesitation ( only because I had retired) opted in… Besides, I was contemplating doing a little something on the side anyway to keep me somewhat occupied.
So now, a few weeks ago while working at a new location, I was sitting in an office performing a little programming…He walks in, asks me how am I doing and gives me a fist bump ( cause he knows that I’m not a hand shaker)..
He then proceeds to talk about black people and how we need to stop bringing up slavery and what happened forty years ago. Man, you know I just had to take a moment to let this marinate and think about whether or not he really understood the gravity of what he was saying. Was this a statement that he truly believed in his heart or was he just regurgitating some BS that he and a lot of folks like him have heard other people say over the years and even more so lately.. I mean I gotta tell ya, I had to catch myself because either he was being extremely audacious or was just plain ignorant because stupid he is not. Did he really feel that comfortable with me that he could speak that openly with me? Was he really that disconnected or did he possibly feel that because of his position (You know, the man who signs my checks) and being white, that this actually granted him that privilege? I really had no answer but I definitely wanted to put him in check.
He continued talking about my people as though he were some expert on African-American history,culture and behavior.  You know that mentality that most white folks have which is that (we all look and act alike)..This man’s ancestors not only enslaved Africans but committed some of the most heinous and cruelest atrocities against my people and now we should just forget about it!! You see, it’s like saying if someone get’s their ass whipped every single day for years, well they should let bygones be bygones.  Hell no, you need to always remember that shit because they may just try to do it again and you need to be ready for it!! I can almost guarantee you one thing and that is, if the situation were reversed  he wouldn’t be trying to forget  about it and odds are he’d be more than likely thinking about how he could get revenge and possibly turn the tables..That’s just how most white folks roll man..They don’t forget and they don’t forgive, they find a way to get even with your ass…
He then to talked about what Trump had said regarding the state of Black people and how the Obama administration had done practically nothing for us and what did we have to lose by voting for Trump?  Sadly to say there are a lot of black folks  that feel the very same way…You know it’s very interesting and just a bit comical just how much white folks forget how we got into this predicament in the first place. They always seem to conveniently have a lapse in memory of how white America has always managed to put various strangle hold measures in place that pretty much impeded the progress of most Black people.
You see, they don’t want to talk about that imbecile Bush 43 and his administration’s lack of oversight which allowed the economy, wall street, and housing market to crash and how we were inextricably plunged into a financial crisis.. How their rapaciousness dragged us into an unnecessary war, how he blew a trillion-dollar surplus and how the pentagon misplaced 2.3 Trillion dollars all under his watch (oh and let us not forget about that inside 911 job that they’d like us to believe was committed by some folks from a third world desert country)…Yeah, these so-called Saudi terrorists were slicker than the US intelligence department which probably wrote the book on slick aka espionage and covert activity…But they are sure quick to point out how badly we’re doing under Obama (click link) who just happened to create millions more jobs than Bush, as though his administration did such an outstanding job. Really??(SMH)….He also wanted to make a point of just how much black on black crime there is and the high number of murders that are being committed these days and how disproportionately the percentages are as it relates to blacks being killed by cops  as opposed to whites being killed by cops and that cops should be given  due process. I had to remind him that our brothers and sisters who were being executed by these cops were also entitled to that same due process but were denied it by a cops bullet that rendered their own form of justice (death). I also let him know that my people will stop talking about the injustices when the injustices stop and that we’ll stop talking about slavery when white folks stop talking about the holocaust, pearl harbor,the 911 hoax and other atrocities that they suffered. They would have been talking about white slavery but it hasn’t impacted them as it has black folks and besides they don’t want to be telling folks that their ancestors were once enslaved by their own!!!!They’ll deny that all the way to their graves and claim it was indentured servitude.. They always like to make foul shit that they have done sound palatable….Much easier to digest!
Why is that white folks are always trying to tell black folks what we should and should not be doing and what we should and should not talk about? You ever notice how when you bring up all the foul shit that they’ve done, their response is ( that’s in the past) no need to bring up shit from the past and how we need to get beyond it and move forward… They always want to sell us on how good Blacks have it now and some BS about how great  and virtuous they are in order to keep folks distracted from the truths. You know, like we should be thankful that we’re not still slaves and we should shut the hell up….You see, this is the kinda ignorant self-righteous, holier than thou condescending mentality that could make a righteous people become ruthless and wicked and want to inflict some serious pain upon them but most black folk are just not like that.. Maybe we need to be, to some extent!!! 
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The Power of Influence (POTUS Election 2016)

Perception Influences Perspective

My last post I wrote a little about the “power of self” and this post as you can see is about the “power of influence”. Both of these correlate with one another because one cannot happen without affecting the other in some fashion (be that good or bad). We are all influenced in some manner or another and that can happen in many ways. I read this book called (The Psychology of Influence and Persuasion written by: Robert D. Cialdini, PhD) and I couldn’t help but think of how much it applies to this 2016 Presidential campaign and all the negative and repulsive ( yet revealing ) comments and antics that surrounded and enveloped it.  This book as well as this election is an in-debt revealing look into the weapons of persuasion and how they are implemented.. Unbeknownst to us, we encounter and fall prey to them almost every waking hour, minute and second of the day…
The “power of self” can also be an influence on not just our lives but the lives of others both indirectly and directly. Basically, what it boils down to is how one or the other is used.. Now these can be negative or positive but either way they are interlocked. Weapons of persuasion are used to affect our thoughts and emotions which will yield the desired effect. In this case, the outcome of the 2016 Presidential election!!!
This election has been exactly that, an overwhelmingly display of influence and weapons of persuasion. It serves as a classic example of how folks have allowed things they heard, things they wanted to hear but didn’t or things they thought they heard, things they saw, things they wanted to see but didn’t or things they thought they saw  affect their judgment and now we and the world bear witness to its effect . They have allowed elements or mediums outside of themselves to take complete control of their minds and emotions and affect them immensely without much evaluation. That which impacts our perception will ultimately affect our perspective.. The massive  amount of energy and effort set in motion campaigns on both sides whose purpose or intent was to ultimately persuade folks to vote for their respective candidates. There were also other entities, sources and people who individually and some collectively who spoke of how they felt about both candidates whether positively or negatively attempting to influence and persuade folks to vote or not to vote for these candidates. This occurred from all ethnic, religious and special interest groups. To sum it up, it was an immense aggregation and amalgamation of propaganda, emotions, thoughts, stink and garbage… Speaking of religion, isn’t there supposed to be a separation of church and state?? Oh that’s right, only when it is a matter of convenience and agendas……
 Hypocrites!!! But ya’ll go ahead and keep listening and following these impostors and crooks masked in the cloth of righteousness….B.S.

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The Power of Self

Questions to self;

What do I want out of life?

Do I have any idea of what it is that I am seeking?

Do I find myself on a seemingly perilous journey that appears to lead to nowhere?

Do I often times wander aimlessly about with no real sense of purpose or direction?

Do I feel as though I am irrelevant and that my life has no meaning?

Do I find myself admiring the life of others and feel shameful about  the life that I am living?

If you have answered yes to all of these questions then you are wasting your life away…If you have answered yes to one or two then you definitely still have some soul-searching to do..If you don’t understand anything about yourself, what could you possibly hope to understand about others and life in general?

You see life is a construct of many unknowns and can be just a little bit confusing at times. The worse is not knowing oneself and not understanding what we are capable of. If we have not been given fundamental teachings of principles and morals  in our homes or elsewhere, then we are left to our own devices. I know this all too well and have lived it…

Principle; a fundamental truth or proposition that serves as the foundation for a system of belief or behavior or for a chain of reasoning.

Morals; a person’s standards of behavior or beliefs concerning what is and is not acceptable for them to do.

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